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haha..its funny to think bout it..the last few month i was the one who said tat i dun wan her back..she was the one who begged me to get back together..but now im the one who is beggin her to come back n she saying tat she dun wan me back...
but the thing about todae is tat when we hugged n looked into each other eyes, i can feel tat the feeling is still there. Well i ask her whether she got the same feeling lyke i did, she denied.True or not?i dun noe...but im reali glad tat i saw her todae...2 tell her bout my current life n she telling me bout hers...if only i could turn back time, n redo the mistakes ive made.but tats impossible...One thing tat i try 2 denied is tat im over her but actually im not...im still in love with her n will always be...but i couldnt force her 2 love me back....she said her love for me is gone...sumthing inside me keep telling me tat its not true...sumthing in me tell me tat she still love me...true or not i'll nvr noe..only she noes...HOPE!!!I love her!Anything can happen in the future, tats wat she told me. Is she giving me a hint tat there's a chance 2 be with her again?i dun noe...hope she wil give me a chance..
signout
MR FBI...
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Why cant this feeling go away?the feeling that i still nid her by my side. No other girls can love me the way she did. No other girls can capture my heart like the way she did.i still worry for her.i still care for her. i still love her.even though she's with sum1 else.i try to move on. i really did try. but i keep reminding myself about her. i still do keep the movie tickets that we went. i still got the keychain pics that we took at the underwaterworld. Well tats the first tyme i went there. Memories that couldnt go away. Well i started smoking, juz for the fun of it.but im becoming addicted 2 it.i started smoking because to forget the pain. i drink juz 2 forget the pain.it has been a few months but still her voice is still in my head. i still have dreams bout her. my heart stopped when i saw somethings that remind me of her.im still waiting for her. hoping tat i will be with her again.God's willing.
Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas
Selama Tuhan masih mengizinkan
Ku ingin selalu menjagamu
Signing Out
Mr FBI...
Saturday, December 19, 2009
well nvr been blogging for a long tyme due to the emptiness in me...truthfully speaking ive not been handling my life well. for this many weeks ive been doing some soul searching. been meeting alot of people. everyone that ive meet didnt seem 2 interest me except for this one girl. well i can say she reali make me see the brighter side of life. Starting to kinda fall for her each n everyday. i told her but she said that her heart is ready 2 open to sum1 yet..well i understand..another girl she's been liking me since i dun noe when...well my feelings for her is as a friend but she still hoping i will open up my heart for her. the ferst girl i will called her 'Girl1' and the another girl will be 'Girl2'.Girl1 has not been reply my msgs n my phone calls while Girl2 is msging me and giving me calls. Girl1 wrote in her facebook tats she's lost hope in me. well she's not the ferst girl 2 say that..its hurts..seriously..but i cant blame on her..i am confused indeed i am...u r right..well i guess it's juz me n the world...maybe i will try 2 open up my feelings for Girl2...Girl1 ur a great person seriously...juz continue in achieving ur dreams..will always support u!!!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Let me tell you guys how i met her. Actually i met her through one of the internet chatroom. Still remember the nick,Lolita. She was hurt by the last ex.Well i add her in msn. tried to chat wit her there.But still she didnt chat wit me tat much. Ask for her number. As soon as she gave me the number, i called her. We talked for awhile and planned to meet on a special day. One day before the day we planned to meet, when i got home from soccer, i call her up cuz cant wait 2 mit her. i told her i'll pick her up. When i reached in front of her school, i waited 4 her. Suddenly a beautiful youg sweet girl come out of the school. Her long hair. Her smile. Her sweet scent. My heartbeat keeps faster n faster as she approached. On the 24th september, i ask her 2 be mine. we tok through the whole night n morning. For the ferst tyme i go out, i wear my shoes juz 2 look smart for her. After a few days, she tok me she havent fall in love wit me yet. For tat 2mths i fight for her love. I nvr fight for a person's love b4. Finally she gave her heart 2 me. tat's the happiest happiest day of my life. The ferst tyme i celebrated my birthday wit her. She gave me a converse shoe. Nvr before i wear this kind of branded shoe. the ferst tyme. Next year she gave me an Everlast watch. the ferst branded watch. But the most precious gift she gave me was her love n a photo book. I look at it everyday seriously. But fight after fight i was gettin weaker n weaker. I just want her to be patient cuz i was really bz with my important school project like how important her o level. Speaking of o level, She really did study very hard. i waited for her patiently everyday becuz she wanted 2 study. She was so nervous that she think she might failed her o level. I believe that she can do it. I belive that she can get her target mark and her dream course. I believe her. SHE DID VERY WELL AND GOT HER DREAM COURSE!!!Still today im very proud of her. 'Believe'.This is the word that i use in my ferst speech in school. People think i say this word just to impress the lecturers. NO!They are wrong. 'Believe' is a word that is very meaningful in my life. Believe in ur dreams. Believe with ur heart,mind and soul. People tend to forget to believe. Tats why each n everyone of us nid 2 remind each other to believe in our dreams. All i wanted her was to remind me to Believe in Our love. I believed that she will be mine again. But without anyone reminding me, the thing that i believe is slowly fading away. BELIEVE is a short word but very meaningful. So guys remind everyone of ur friends to believe in everything tat they do especially their dreams. To the girl i always been thinking bout and this post is bout, believe in ur dream. Go for it. No one can stop u. This is ur life.So here i ended my post with a very meaningful word in my life,'BELIEVE'
Signing Out,
SimplyLiving
A Lonely Birthday...
12:15 AM
It's my birthday today.But i dun feel the joy today. My birthday doesnt mean anything to me right now. I just feel apart of me is missing. im feeling as im lost deep inside a jungle alone. I just nid sum1 to love. Seeing couples walking around happily juz bring back my sweet memories i had. Oh yes i still remember. The sweet scent of her. Her soft skin. Her sexy laugh.Her beautiful eyes. Her unforgettable smile. The way she love me. The way she cheer me up when im upset. The hug. The kiss.Now...i cant have it. i've lost it all. i always love her n i still do. She's one in million. Seriously.Yes i hate some things bout her but she's special 2 me. She meant the world 2 me. I let her go. I hate the fights. I hate when im too bz with skool. Her face will always n still make me smile .Im willing 2 do anything juz 2 see her smile n happy. She taught me alot of stuffs. Gd n Bad.Now she's gone. I let her go.I shouldnt have. To the guy who got her now. Love her.Make her smile. Dun let her feel lonely. Don't make her cry. She's truly a wonderful complicated clever hot sexy loving swit caring(there's alot more) girl i've ever met. I did lots of mistakes. This is the most stupidiest mistake ive ever made. Life have 2 go on whether i lyke or not. Gotta stop looking at my door, juz hoping she would come knocking on my door. I seriously miz her alot. i truly miz her alot. i totally miz her in my arms. I miss every inch of her. i can still hear her heartbeat in my head.
Signing out,
SimplyLiving.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Feelings...
9:43 PMEveryone has a different way of expressing themselves. The way they love. The way they are upset. The way they dislike someone. Some people tend to hide their feelings away from people. Each and everyone of us has a reason or reasons to hide or to express our feelings. But can a person really 100% hide a feeling of sadness? People always say they are 'ok'. But are they?
Losing a person who was a major part of your life is a damn painful feeling. People tend to do lots of mistakes but will they be given a chance to undo the mistakes they made? What if they don't have enough time to undo it?You won't know when your time will end. Been very down lately.Thankfully there was someone who cheer me up this past few days. For now, i will just simply live my life.
Signing Out,
SimplyLiving
P.S You always be remembered(in the good way!)
More To Come..
9:05 PMToday,in the morning, one of my lecturers came to see me and told me to attend to this 'SIQC' final at ITE Balestier this coming thursday(too bad my team didnt get through to the final).And another lecturer of mine asked me and two of my friends to attend this award ceremony which she say will maybe help to us to motivate ourselves to do better in our studies. That event is gonna be next monday. That lecturer even told us that in our last semester. She will keep asking us to go for some events in the days ahead.
More events, more things to keep me busy. Apply for two jobs lately. Really hope i will be hired in one of the jobs. About trying something new, hmmm...i got one thing in my mind. Hopefully this things will keep me busy until i forgot about my emotional feelings.haha.
Signing Out,
SimplyLiving
P.S well starting to handling things abit better ;)
